"There is a particular kind of pain , elation , loneliness and terror involved in this kind of madness. When you're high it's tremendous. the ideas and feelings are fast and frequent like shooting stars adnd you follows them until you find better and brighter ones ... ... Feelings of ease , intensity . power , well-being, financial omnipotence and euphoria pervade one's marrow . But somewhere this changes . The fast ideas are far too fast, and there are far too many ; overwhelming confusion replaces clarity . Memory goes ... ... you are irritable, angry , frightened, uncontrollable and enmeshed totally in the blackest of caves of the mind . You never knew those caves were there. It will never end , for madness carves it's own reality . "

----------- "An Unquiet Mind " ,Kay Redfield Jamison .