too depressed to sleep .....

You know , school is turning out to very depressing and upseting . All the effort that i'm putting in is not translating into results and it is fucking annoying . After all my late nights studying for my democracy mid term test , all i get is stupid B . I've never studied so hard before . When have i ever stayed in school so late and try to catch up on my readings and everything . Not to mention how i've also screwed up my comms presentation by being a gibbering idiot. Seriously , as someone who is used to public speaking in JC , after the numerous chances facilitating at camps , talking to freshmen , fuck . i even spoke to the entire school before and i could talk nonsense for my comms presentation . I can only hope that my written comms is some form of saving grace . and stats . fucking stats . really .. can someone explain to me why am i taking stats ? ... i know stats A is suppose to be easier for mathematically incapable idiots like me , but still !! .. i should be taking stats for dummies or like stats 0.1 instead of stats 101 . LTB is not going anywhere as well . sigh .... my smoking skills can only accomplish so much . hurry up and finish . i'm getting very tired pushing people to pull their weight and bring sometime productive to the table . sigh . hate school . go away . 5 more weeks . hurry up and finish already .