A bit depressed and a bit depressing . So pls excuse moi while i rant .

It was something which i wanted to blog about since the beginning of this week but nothing i could come up with will ever match this . I knicked it from may's blog . It's really annoying when i get this like this . Nothing ever feels right . Nothing ever really fixed it .

"It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darknes, so working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a body-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. "

It leaves you totally breatheless and one merely subsists on wisps of oxygen, straining every cell of one's lungs . Like a mechanical clam over your heart, it'll never let go. i need to go somewhere , something to take away my mind (if i've not already lost it) . Escapism , is still a temporary relief . Allowing you to only drifting away from the shore of reality , without knowing the anchor would fall further and harder out there .

I opened the blinds of my window and stared at the darkening clouds for a full 15 minutes, casting a grey shade over the landscapte and I thought to myself , what a beautiful sight . sigh ...