Hmm .. Okay . i bought a CD today . But it was fully justified , because , it's Corrinne May . She's a talented local singer , great voice and you can't find her songs anywhere else . So there . $18.90 just flew away from me and all this is happening with the possiblity that i might need to spend another $90 dollars on diving to pulau hantu next weekend . Honestly , i really don't want to look at my bank account to see how much it has spiralled . I think my weak heart cannot take it . i don't even want to think about the $24 i have to pay for my new Tiger OS and the approx $20 buck i owe hechi for buying my vanilla vodka . ( well , at least i can get cheap alcohol fix , it goes fantabulous with sprite ice btw . Or you can just spike ur coffee with it )

Yet at the same time , i'm still looking at new diving programmes like the national geographic diver ( i've sent an email to the local dive operator to find out about the cost .. hopefully , it's not that freaking ex. Hopefully , i can go for this in the future .. depends depends )

I'm disgusted with my spending habits / urges .

Sometimes , it seems absolutely trivial and stupid to keep blogging about your financial woes, and u wish you won't have to make yourself sound like poor broke loser , but the actual fact is , i am . I am a poor broke loser . I have to agonise over 2 weeks to decide whether i should i buy a zara t-shirt and curbing myself of my spending urges when all i really want is to buy that new brasil theme inspired nice orange nike T-shirt ( kind souls should note that they are available at Heeren, for $35) and that top from guess on page 4 in this season's hot green colour with the cool number 9 ( Guess/Paragon , ngee ann city , $49 ) . Life is just unfair . Why can't we all be paris hilton ?? I mean , i can make a porn video , star in my own ditzy reality programme as well . Oh right . i'm not the heir to shangri-la chain of hotels . *grrr*

People like me should stay at home and not go out . ( at least till the Great Singapore Sale in June )

Oh . i changed the wallpaper of tristan . I dunno whether is it just me , but never in my entire life , i've gotten so excited about a wallpaper . It just looks different on my ibook . Trust me , this is coming from someone who has 2 PCs at home and one PC in office at his disposal . I'm either mad and hallucinating or this wallpaper off the quiksliver website is just beyond cool .

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I sorta realise that i have no life . All i ever blog about is my money and tristan . See , i'm not kidding about the part about poor broke loser .