Redirection : Retrospection

If you have noticed , there's a facelift of the blog , on top of the previous layout revamped which i did a couple of weeks back . I'm still trying to fix the comments function . I've also changed the title, give us this our daily rants was getting too old , i had that since 2004 when the blog started the i had never changed . I've actually been blogging since 2002 , way before the word blog even caught on and i remember telling people about a blog and they would ask me what was it about and asking if i've misprounounced the word log .

Since then , lots have changed and long time bloggers would have sensed that , as paradoxically it may sound , as the blog community grew bigger , it seemed that the privacy of personal blogs has also eroded . These days, blogs have become so popular that it was extremely easy to dig out the personal thoughts of someone else without the knowledge of the subject of investigation . I say investigationg because that is what it is , a secretive invasion to unearth the cognitive motions lying underneath revealed for the entire world to stare and criticise. It's ironic , but the new generation of bloggers still hold on this apparent veil of disguise . Perhaps sometimes , you do have let things out to calm the tempest raging within .

Yet , throughout this period of blog reading , i've come across the most banal , documenting every second of actions in detail that seem fit only in the pages of a 8000 page report on algae . A waste of space in the blogsphere . I would like to be kind and their motive for blogging in such a manner is to inform and allow others to keep up to date with their actions and not to lull unsuspecting readers into slumber.

I think when i changed the title of the blog , i felt that how ranting no longer really helped . To take the words from Texas , you can say what you want , but it won't change my mind , so point talking about it , the actions need to follow through and you have to learn to be ruthless and put your foot down on certain instances and stand up , not just for your principles but also for whatever consequences that may come . You must be prepared to fight your case . I would like to think that it's a sign of how i've grown , how the people around me have grown , but on certain days , it does feel like you're just reacting to the world out there . Maybe the mark of maturity if perhaps facing reality .

I'm in a rather pensieve mood after reading Anderson Cooper's Dispatches from the edge . I fully appreciated his style of writing that in it's lexicon of words, there's was no verbosity . He wrote mainly about his life and his experiences covering the stories of Hurricane Katrina and the Iraq War and Tsunami . To be honest , i never really thought much of such events, we live in a society that has allowed us to be complacent and take our daily comforts for granted . We are cushioned , geographically from these horrible events , emotionally , through the television . We'd watched it on the news at 9 , but how many of us wake up the morning after forgeting everything we've seen just the night before and remember that there are people at Sri Lanka suffering the after effects of the Tsunami . I am truly in no right to criticse because on the 27 December 2004 , a day after the Tsunami has hit , i was lying on the floor , probably still drunk from the 7 bottles of wine , playing Taboo , sprawled over the floor like a druggie . Sept 11 , 2001 , i was watching Ally Mcbeal on tv , I remember swtiching over the channel news asia and seeing the entire scene of the airplan crashing into the twin towers and when it was time , i promptly swtiched back to laughing away at Calista Flockhart and her mini skirt and her escapades at the bar . Flashbulb memories .

It's a good book and reading about his efforts of trying to be a news corrspondent of being out there and reporting the news even know he was not hired reminded me of one of reasons why i started a blog in the first place . I wanted to write . I wanted to be journalist and fly around the globe to - to borrow a cliche quote if i may - bring you news updates around the world . I don't know how far i've come since then and the closest thing i've did was to get a CD album review published in LIME and i'm not entirely sure me becoming the new managing director of VIE might account for anything . As i was reading the book , a large spectrum of emotions ran through me , cheering on every minute sucess within the destruction surrounding the tiny miracle , or feeling the pain of coming to terms with seeing how the destruction around reflected the struggles that plagued his personal life.

It's late and i should stop blabbering . Not that there's anything to do because i can't sleep nowadays and i just stare my eyelids for hours .
But you know , going through the motions will help .