Sometimes , i think i'm a very mean person , but i can't help it . Haha . It just comes naturally for me to do evil things or say really mean things . I feel guilty because people are all so nice to me nowadays . Not that i don't repay kindness with kindnes , it's just that , when the opportunity presents itself , the first thing that comes to my mind is "payback" time . I have to say ,It's not very healthy and even though i tend to get my way most of the time , it's not nice . antipathique . At least i feel guilty about it . Maybe this explains why i don't feel very comfortable when ppl are nice to me too . Or perhaps i'm too suspicious . I dunno . Maybe i need to learn how to handle "niceness" .. being evil is so much easier .