I think at this moment , there exists a certain inertia to work . ( duh , why else would i be blogging at work ) , i can see that work is pilling up bit by bit , but i'm doing anything about it . I'm only here because i have no choice . Sure i can take leave , but i'll just be at home or wherever doing the exact same thing . Nothing . to be exact . How i wish i can just plug into my earphones and listen to music the whole day away .

It's not that i don't like my work environment or my fellow work colleagues , it's just the inherent knowing that this place has nothing else to offer me. At least that's what i think . It's the immense sense of boredom that is killing me . Not bored because there is nothing to do , bored because things haven gotten so repatative that it's draining . And i happen to have a very low threshold towards boredom . I'm so bored i'm willing to go to canteen on my own and just drink coffee and stone .

Yet , when faced with such absolute dullness , a nagging sense of responsiblity tells me that i cannot afford to slack and watch things screw up by themselves (maybe if i continue not doing work , it might happen) , but it's just not my style to watch things crash and burn . I think other people call it "ethics" , for me its really annoying . I'm stuck here facing with this huge dilemma and having no where to go .

Sigh .. i want out . Yet , out don't come till June - July . This feeling is getting unbearable . Watching stones jump might be an even more interesting prospect .